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I need Advice. Should I go for minimum wage?

Im at college because of family pressure. Tried software development, failed misserable cause im a brainlet. Now Im on graphic design and animation, but I dont give a shit about it, cause most of the classes are dumb fillers of pure theory (which I hate cause im a brainlet), I just want to work with my hands, not listen to an idiot all day. I didnt went to class today because its so boring, I hoped ritalin would help but it didnt. Now what? Is it okay to be a min wage slave? should I go for it? or should I sacrifice my mental health so I can draw as a job?
And how can I deal with pressure? Help me Wizs
R: 7 / I: 2

sorry for schizoposting but I'm a schizomage =3

>u just w8k up 1 morning&ur liek
>lol this is so fuckin epic
>and that's how u know u became an enlightened being
>and that's when you realize u literally just became a wiznormie
>and literal Hell ensues
>and honestly warlocks have it the best
>>dear alchemist pls look up stravt410n
>also "trying not to be quirky here but I'm just so fucking new under the face of the sun.

>>"lole u guyse r'e so fok3ni6 epik mane"

>u damn rite
and that's how u do an le epic winrar.exe!

>inb4 kek

haha lol i'm a battlemage am i doin it rite guys?
>you can tell he's been observing the normies to the point where he's practically indivisable from them..
>$$mo n0rm135$$mo m0n135#K3K

and that's the lay of the land, turn that into sharkfood for me will u? kthx.

>inb4 do 5h4rk5 3v3n 34t i mean LEET lole im so funny guys right k me one time? ok pls just get me that something a (you) or something at this point i've spent my life serving you guys and this is what I've become?

My own cruel joke?.
>yes now step into my shoes normie get the fuck off my w1nt3r NOW!!
OK but how are we gonna bane u most apporpiately because wow we need too becuz i mean look at ur FUCKING POST MY DUDE THAT IS NOT OK HERE AND U SHOULD KNOW THAT IF YOU WERE ACTUALLY INTO MAGIC LIKE U SAY YOU FKN D KKKKKK!!!
>nigger =)

>yep im the alpha around here and that's why I decide that he's a permabanned cow from now on

>>but that's just hims 2cents ;3
R: 3 / I: 0
years ago, wizardchan made a list about what wizzies learn through their years of knowledge about diverse thing they learned about. but alas, I lost it. does someone knows what Im talking about, can someone have it?
R: 36 / I: 2


I just want to know a bit about wizards and cruelty

>were you generally a cruel child?

>are you a cruel person now?
>are you kind to animals? are you vegetarian/vegan?
>would you consider yourself to be an empathetic person? Does the occurrence of cruelty bother you, even if you aren't the victim?
R: 195 / I: 10

Are adult virgins THAT rare?

Sometimes I feel like there's no adult virgins out there. No matter where I go, be it discord, various chans, forums and social media, I have yet to find someone around my age(28) that's a virgin.
I could go to a small discord server of some obscure weeb game only a degenerate would like and everyone in there would have had friends and a girlfriend or three growing up.
Not to sound like an insufferable snowflake faggot but it sometimes makes me think that there's no people out there that grew up with no friends or a girlfriend like me. At least not online.
What do you think wizards? Would you say virgins are that rare?
R: 51 / I: 7

Trying drugs (as a Wizard)

Most would agree the biggest societal peer pressure is to lose your virginity, and have offspring. But what about the pressure of losing your drug virginity?
I'm a loner, and I've never been to college, aka the breeding ground of all beginner drug addicts. I live in the city, and my entire family is full of drug addicts. I live alone now, and lately I've been itching to experience life a little more. The only social event that relates to interests of mine is live music, and that got me thinking. What if I was offered drugs at a music show? I've always been wary of peer pressure, but thankfully never had to deal with much of it, since like I said, I'm an unapproachable loner. From what I've seen, most drug addicts are insufferable normalfags, that want to spread their misery and get people hooked on bad shit. I'm a casual, I only want to try psychedelics and any other drug that you don't have to physically sell your entire life and soul to. Before this gets too ranty and personal, what do wizards think about taking drugs, and how should a wizard approach their very first drug experience?
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I know there are a lot of wizards that identify as asexual, and that got me curious. Do asexual wizards indulge in their own unique fetishes? Not to be confused with sexual kinks, fetishes are an uncontrollable turn-on that you didn't ask for. Of course, it's incredibly taboo, so much so that I don't think I've ever seen a thread on the topic. So, now that the ice is broken, what are your fetishes, /wiz/?
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Do you think that being ironic about everything is a sign that someone is insecure?

Perhaps they are trying to avoid the possibility that their ideas/jokes/statements may not be liked but it doesn't matter because they were "just being ironic"

It seems like there has been a huge decline in sincerity. Should people be more sincere?
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Well, I'm a NEET, again… I'm 28 years old with little employment history, what's stored for me, wizbros?
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hikkis. are moral heroes

The Paralysis Argument
ABSTRACT: Given plausible assumptions about the long-run impact of our everyday actions, we show
that standard non-consequentialist constraints on doing harm entail that we should try to do as little as
possible in our lives. We call this the Paralysis Argument. After laying out the argument, we consider
and respond to a number of objections. We then suggest what we believe is the most promising
response: to accept, in practice, a highly demanding morality of beneficence with a long-term focus


imagine you’re deciding whether to redeem a coupon for a free movie. If you go, you’ll need to drive to the cinema. By
ffecting traffic throughout the city, you’ll have slightly impacted the schedules of thousands or tens of thousands of people. The average life is about 30,000 days, and over the course of a life the average person will have about two children. So — if you’ve impacted at least 7,500 days — then, statistically speaking, you’ve probably influenced the exact timing of a conception event. That different child will now impact all sorts of things as they go about their life, including future conception events. And then those new people will impact further future conceptions events, and so on. Thanks to these ripple effects, after 100 or maybe 200 years, basically everybody alive will be a different person because you went to the movies

R: 68 / I: 10

Do you have friends?

Do you have friends or are you all alone? of course beside your family. What happened? Be honest, you're anonymous here.
R: 2 / I: 0

This is a rant, I'm tired of pretending suicide is wrong

As long as I can remember all I always wanted is to rest, give me a fucking break I'm 32 years old, yes. if I do it, it will likely shatter my mom, and be a blow to siblings, but why should I care? I know that seems heartless to ask and stupid, because I do care, but my point is, why should I bare all of this weight? Jesus fucking Christ, all I want when I go to sleep is to not wake up, yes I've done therapy, took medication and what not, it's not wrong, I'm not sick, I just don't see what the big deal of life is, everything is a distraction, an illusion to deviate you from the truth, you, me, and everyone else is a byproduct of exposure and environment. I'm not a lonely, angst teenager, I just don't want it, it's fine, there is people that likes life, I don't. I just don't see the point, and no, this is not about being a wiz, if anything, in many regards being a wiz, saved me of a lot of unnecessary headache.
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Jobs that are well suited for shut-ins?

What are some jobs shut-ins can do from their basements? I feel bad for contributing nothing to my family's net worth.

Here's my list so far:
-content moderator
-furry porn artist
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I am a seeker coming out of wizard psychosis in a quest to turn the saturn moon matrix off and along my path I have fucked myself up with a kundalini awakening and my spine is electrified and I have triple layered lucid paralysis dreams and a bunch of other shit trying to kill me
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I’m new here Sorry

So can I please ask. I know everyone hates newbies but you all remind me a little of how people USED to be on 4chan and best case scenario you have none of what ruined the platform. Do you guys all actually practice magic, like any fucking kind or is it just a metaphor. Please tell me because I want to be included too
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Life is likely eternal. The Universe is fundamentally unstable as there is something instead of nothing. If there were total peace in the Universe (no dimension/force of time to create space and upset everything), there would be nothing instead of something. There are only so many ways for a big-bang to begin (or a massive hot energy release, maybe somewhat like light at first, because of the dimension/force of time (see #27 for a more thorough explanation of space/time) that eventually compacts and cools because of time and forms into all matter), so that is a finite number of variables. Because the universe is fundamentally unstable (likely because of the likely eternal/infinite force of time) it is likely eternal. What is happening is a finite number of variables (potential ways for a big-bang to materialize in response to the force of time) in an eternal Universe (the dimension of time itself, which may be physically impossible to not exist) at the very start. The big-bang can only begin so many ways, and even if there is a 1E100 in 1 googol of a chance of you, an evolved chemical computer, being re-assembled, it will happen. As soon as it starts, it is all pre-determined to make you no matter what happens due to simple cause and effect. Due to the expanse of the Universe (which may extend into an infinite multi-verse because there is likely infinite time beyond the big-bang itself as time, the fabric of space itself, presupposes the big-bang for more instability/big-bangs), each big-bang has somewhat of a high chance to create you even if it is very unlikely to be so. Do not live your life like this is a guarantee even though it likely is. Assume oblivion on death. This has been called Eternal Return. There are people that say 3 wheels can be set so they never synchronize in small systems, so it's possible for a finite number of variables to never recur, but the Universe is a very big system unlike 3 spinning wheels set to never synchronize, and the Big-bang itself likely has a finite number of ways to begin like lightning or fire, so there is extremely high potential for recurrence given an infinite amount of time and space as a byproduct of time.
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Smart phone addiction

Anyone else hopelessly addicted to using smartphones? I hate it, I feel like it makes me dumber, it undoubtedly lowers my attention span and disturbs my sleep.

I smashed my iPhone 7 earlier today in a fit of rage. I'm thinking about buying a dumb phone. Has anyone on here made the switch to a dumb phone?
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Am I the only one that actually attaches a sense of weight to the word 'friend'. Like for fuck sake a friend isn't just literally anyone you interact with socially regularly. But I guess we all got that pampered into us as kindergartners the adults see us playing together and they're like aww wiz has a new friend.
And as we go on to school we just mimick that like those three are friends because we hang out at recess. But I feel like friends should have a connection, a deep interest in each other. But what most le 'friendships' are, is just for fucking mutual entertainment or social status. Idk I just call them buddies, just like drinking buddies are gone when the booze is, so are these 'friends' gone when the entertainment or the status is. Just like in modern relationship - when muh sex is gone, you get it.

Wizbros I tried.. I really fucking tried. Probably very abnormal here as I am (well it's declining with my isolation in adult life) swuave and very handsome, the succes love me, and I think that's the only reason I am here.. you learn a lot more about the normfest socializing with the succubi. Well they're all trailer trash and the men are worse in my opinion.

I grew up incredibly talented, but relentlessly bullied in school by the entire class. I don't think there was a single day where the whole class weren't playing 'run from wizzie' in recess. It's like tag except these fuckers just run from me hhahah..
Idk why it didn't make me want to massacre them it just made me want to kms so they'd know how I felt.
Well for some reason I still tried my absolute best socializing. And all of a sudden puberty hits like a truck. Of course my class are still being niggers because that's what niggers do they nig and nig and nig. So the succubi from the class above me start talking to me, so the succubi from my class start talking to me, so the guys from class try to get really close to me. Oh yeah up until this point I had a 'BF' who'd just treat me like a dirty rag because he needed someone to hang out with, and we'd barely hang out. But all of a sudden whole school knows me(close knit school) I'm super popular everyone wants to talk to me, they find out I'm super hilarious my class already knew I was gifted. Do you know how that feels? Not a single one of these motherfuckers GENUINELY want to talk to me and get to know me they're just fucking opportunists. I didn't realize this yet though so kept socializing just could never get to the level of intimacy for the deed, sure was trying horny little teenager. Looking back it's because they wanted all these things ABOUT me, like the swagger or the hair or the humor or the status or specific personal traits. Like fuck I'm still the social fucking reject, just trying to please everyone. This shit keeps on going I started at a new school.. no one really talks to me except for the hotties who quickly realizes I'm not your typical Chad. So I just kinda gravitate towards the loners.. needed somewhere to be you know but that was just killing time. The popular gang relentlessly bully me(posh boarding school so almost anytime any day). Not like I give a fuck I've practically become immune. Well i get stuck with the leader of this group for a math project, and he realizes I'm braindead funny so they kinda keep me around as a lolcow. Whatever ffw to high school no one talks to me but I slowly mingle with the succubi through group projects - people realize there's 'something about me' and all of a sudden I'm the class darling but I just break down in high school wearing this mask catering to and humoring all these people, I couldn't explain it it just didn't make sense and I just wanted to be home on my PC. It also didn't help that i stopped giving a fuck about school and getting b plus or above on autopilot until HS where you HAVE to write le one bajillion letters, all of a sudden that shit is taking time.
I don't even think I'm a failed normies just a wizkid who tried to become a normie. Seriously they're just fucking apex cattle.
And yet I still like and respect them, but I have a hard time looking up to them.
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Tomorrow is a new day for me.

I gotta stop slacking around at work. If I can hold this job, I might be able to secure a home of my own, soon. I'll have to hold to this job and pay around 70% of my salary for the next 16 months.

I can't stand living with my parents, and I can't afford moving out. I don't wish them any harm or ill will, I simply hate them.
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Are you spiritual or religious in any sense?
I'm nearing killing myself, I've been spiritual/religious most of my adult life despite an atheist phase when an adolescent, I'm thinking about confessing myself in a church before jumping.
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I dont know about you, but this is the only place where i can find like minded people. This place feels just fine.
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Anyone else's parents bully them for being wizards? Dad makes fun of me for having no gf.
R: 209 / I: 13

any wizards with schizoid personality disorder?

after recently discovering that this disorder existed and just so happened to exactly describe the hell I've been living in. I began to wonder if any other wizards are suffering from this as well.

furthermore, if any of you do suffer from this I want to know how you deal with it?

>inb4 hurr schizo tread hahaha.

just for the record (and anyone who does not know), schizoid personality disorder is nothing like schizophrenia, no voices, no hallucinations, nothing like that.
the disorder causes a person to withdraw from life via the usage of maladaptive daydreaming, normally leaving them as a husk of a person.
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Considering this place is called WizChan and men here are 30+ schizoid NEETs without children who derive joy in life out of phenomenological pursuits, have any of you actually dabbled in occultism to any extent?
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Shakespeare Wisdom

'Tis so: and as war, in some sort, may be said to
be a ravisher, so it cannot be denied but peace is a
great maker of cuckolds.

-Shakespeare, Coriolanus act 4 scene 5
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Your current opinions

We have these threads every once in a while. What is your current worldview, philosophy, religion, opinions in general about life, etc? I think I'm not the only one around here who changes his worldviews or modifies them quite often.

In a few sentences: I'm an anarchist/left-libertarian, anti-materialist, I prefer asceticism over hedonism, I'm an atheist but I am interested in spiritualism, I believe in souls and free will and that death isn't the end, I reject reincarnation or the idea of eternal recurrence though. I think morality is subjective and that universal morals don't exist, I also think that people can't be anything but egoists. I reject hollow pacifism and believe that lots of bad things could have been avoided during history if people were more decisive and aggressive in certain matters, in other words I think violence has its place in life, we just need to know when to use it and against whom. I hold the belief that animals have souls too and indeed, everything in existence, even plants and rocks and artificial stuff. I view vegetarianism and veganism as feel good morality crap and since you can't exist without hurting other beings at all might as well enjoy our place in nature and eat meat. I am anti-racist, anti-nationalist and believe in equal rights and responsibilities for men and wymen. I have a soft spot for those who are weak or useless in the eyes of society but I have a burning hatred for persons of authority of any kind (teachers, doctors, policemen, politicians, religious leaders, lawyers, judges, etc) and privileged/rich people in general. I think our world is only a reflection of a higher dimension, including us too. Everything we can think of exists on a higher plane of existence and everything that exists in this world has a true essence that exists outside of time and space. I maintain that reason is only a tool in the end and that emotions matter more and our every choice and act is motivated by our feelings rather than our rationality.

What about you?
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NPC theory

There was a thread about NPCs that was censored, but this is an interesting topic.
NPCs are absolutely real and are the vast majority of the population.

They were created by the excesses of agriculture and industry.
Because everything is abundant there isn't much evolutionary pressure on most people and they don't have to work or explore or develop themselves to survive.
They just consume.
Their easy habits become ingrained in the DNA of their line as they choose mates like themselves, and the predisposition to sloth and stupidity turns into genetic compulsion. This happens much faster than "science" anticipates, it only takes a few generations.

NPCs were a bad enough problem when all we had was agriculture, but now industry, especially the media, is filling these humanoid abominations' lives with illusory experiences (weaponized according to psychological principles) and frenzying them into profound insanity.

Agriculture and industry would be fine if there was anything else for people to do and strong laws to compell them to be productive and punish them for degeneracy, but so far the elite classes of various societies have been very weak and greedy favoring large numbers of slave-cattle humanoids and basically ignoring the necessity for sufficient men of quality, assuming that they themselves are all that really matters, when actually society depends on strong middle and lower classes.
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Do you have driver's license? What car do you drive? I got my driver's license 2 years ago, it was a terrible struggle to get it during a the Covid-shutdown, but it was one of the best decesions of my life. It really improved my situation and helped a lot with my depression, gave me massive freedom to be able to drive wherever/whenever I wanted to go, without my parents.

I'm a poor wagie so I could only afford an old Open Astra, but it does the trick perfectly and cheep to maintain.
R: 44 / I: 4

International legion, wizards at war

Well wizards, this might be it for me.
I normally hate blog posters but I just want to vent my concerns I guess. I’m at a crossroads in life, I’m a few months into college and I really don’t like it.
I’ve decided to drop out and go fight in Ukraine (family reasons etc not gonna get political).
Flight is on Tuesday evening, I’ve already been accepted (for military experience and such).
Have any other wizards been at war?
The only thing holding me back is how my family will take it but I try not to think about it.
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Why do normal people want to have sex/ relationship with the opposite sex

I don't understand this mindset, I've never looked at anyone and thought "I want to have sex with that person", neither have I thought that I want to be around some person just because they look attractive. I've always seen "crab" types talking about how they want some certain GF and I am just perplexed as to why? Like they will fawn over some person that they don't even know.

For me I hardly even acknowledge people unless for some reason I had to interact with them and we happened to share interests, obviously they've all been male and I don't have any problem with that. It's clear to me that a female wouldn't be interested in my hobbies so by extension they wouldn't be stimulating to spend any time with.

I also just look at my parents relationship, they have nothing in common, and I wonder why they even got together and had kids. In my head I just think of it like this, if that female they are so interested in was a male they probably would not care a single bit, but for some reason most normals value a pretty female over a friend that actually shares their views and hobbies and they have to choose one or the other. For some reason this made me think back to my old classes in grade school where we learned about ancient greece where women were just for having children and stayed in their social circle of other women and the real relationships and emotional bonding for men were between other men. I feel like that is the right mindset and how things should work, the constructs we see today of men getting along with the opposite sex are just media lies.

Did anyone else have this thought before? I'd like to learn exactly why normals think the way they do, it just seems completely illogical.
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What will become of all of us when we become truly old? 50? 80? I'm scared.
R: 33 / I: 4

Squish Games

Avoid crowds at all costs. Avoid people in general. Treat normals and their gatherings as the death trap they are. See over 100 Koreans get crushed to death stampeding to a club to see a american celebrity. Stayed at home and comfy this holiday. Feels good.

R: 45 / I: 2

Just turned 30 today. Officially a wizard.

Spent the day drinking, eating pizza, and watching Battlestar Galactica.

I eagerly await the manifestation of my new powers.
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If you could change anything your life what would it be?

I am curious about the things you guys would change in your life if you could. I had a relatively shit start in life. Poverty, family drama. It left me fucked up. and even in my 20's and late teens I just felt old. I am in my 30's now and feel really old lol. I never got to go to college because I never had the time or money. I have just held down a series of low wage jobs. If I could change anything it would be to go to college and get a decent job.
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Why are you a wizard? Not asking about free will or other philosophical stuff, just plain simple reason of why are you a wizard. Me? I just can't deal well with succubi in general, maybe a little autismo, who knows. I'm 28.
R: 30 / I: 0

Money for entertainment

How do you guys afford gaming PC's, phones, and consoles? Is it your parents or NEETBUX?

Do your parents just give you thousands of dollars?
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Take the test and, if you have the courage, post your results!
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Since when did the idea of being a wizard got related with a the idea of being a NEET, shut-in and in general a not well functioning person? Why the idea of a do well wizard is not well seen here? What happened?
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Just realized some stuff related to my race, while drunk

Third world tropical country. Both my parents are from a remote part of my country, most of my family lives there.

My dad is mestizo, looks white. My mother looks mestiza. I look mestizo with fairer skin, I am not white though. My skin color stands out, not the whitest but it is not common either.

I am visiting my parent's province of origin. I realized there are lots of indigenous people from a specific ethnic tribe. These people are specific to this part of the country.

My facial traits, height and limb proportions resembles theirs. I just realized what ethnic group my indigenous ancestry comes from. While drunk and high in a local corner.

Feels weird.
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Moral luck theory

I see a lot of fucking normies here self shaming wizards and NEETS and blaming them for everything they are doing it is becoming assholes -chan not wiz chan .
Moral luck is defined as an event outside of a person’s control that carries moral value and that affects the moral judgment of a person’s actions.

All based on Constituitve luck circcumstantial luck ..etc

Like Thomas Negal have said that doesn't change the fact some of us have to work really hard not to be greedy cranky or anti-social while others are just naturally gifted with tendency toward harmony ang generosity.
Yet people still blame blind for his blindness .
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ar there any 50+ year old neets here ? I'm certain I'm going to become a modern hermit and I wish to learn more since that's the life that awaits me.
R: 31 / I: 3

Is living alone a lot of work? Is it worth it?

It seems like it would be. I see a lot of people posting here about how they aspire to move out and live alone in their own house/apartment, but when I think about it that seems like it would be a whole heck of a lot of work.

First off you need to work a wage slave position to earn the income you need to simply pay for the rent/mortgage. If you ever fuck up and get fired or your company collapses or something you need to immediately get a new job so that you don't lose the house. Then there's all the associated housework that you need to do yourself. Cooking, cleaning, laundry, basic maintenance.

If you own the house when something goes wrong you will either need to fix it or hire someone else. Your toilet could back up, your roof could leak, any number of things could happen and likely will happen eventually at some time. If you choose to outsource the labor for most of that you will need to slave even harder at your job to earn enough to pay for someone else to do your cooking and cleaning and maintenance. If you choose to do it yourself you have to spend a lot of time on top of working your job to do all that stuff. Then there's the other minor fees like property taxes, utilities, insurance etc. If you don't own the house and just rent, well then you're literally locked into a lifetime of slavery because you can never accumulate the wealth you earn into a house and just retire and live in your house.

All this just seems like an awful lot of work that you are locked into for a very long time period. The only gains seem to be privacy gains, which seems rather marginal to me. Fewer than 10% of people live alone even in the wealthiest countries. Maybe it is because it's not really that great of an existence? Is this really something to aspire to?
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I'm 28 years old and never had a girlfriend in my life, never.

Confession time and thread.
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Let's talk actual wizardry

Has anyone here tried astral projection or similar? I've always been interested but never succeeded in it, I'm still looking for alternative methods that might work.
I've also practiced meditation and dream interpretation for a while now, I should say that while not entirely paranormal they do have a positive effect on life in general. They aren't entirely paranormal but if you practice hard enough meditation might give you some "hallucinatory" effects, while dream interpretation if taken literally (I mainly used Jung as a source and guide for my dreams) does hint to something greater and eternal inside of us.
Does anyone else here have similar experiences? Again, I'm mainly interested in AP but all is welcome.
Don't know if this is the right board for it but it is actual wizardry soo…
R: 4 / I: 0

Nomad Wizardology

Is the nomad experience up for consideration here?

Wizardry to me, looks to many mythical and religious traditions for inspiration. Of which many have had nomadic contingents over history, like wandering Dervishes in Islam, or all the reclusive hermits of Confucian Daoist stuff. The Catholic church seems to have sublimated this desire into exclusively becoming monks? Is it acceptable to be a Christian nomad? But I digress, Wizardly nomadism surely has some representatives here? Say Aye. For me, now I am more sedentary than nomadic, but I have lived a traveling life in the past. It's very energetic, or possibly energetically taxing, depending on your relationship to it.

Another lense, beyond religious, to view Nomad Wizardology is via classic schizoanalysis, where the Wizard's Nomadic qualities are inherent to, and reproduce the war machine., The smoothness of modern (logistically advanced) travel, is not so different to age old tails of teleportation, the only difference when such a movement is not esoteric but mundane, is that it makes the whole world small, to accommodate the new speed obsession.

tl;dr any wizards nomads
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Dead internet theory

its not just the internet

when i go out at night to buy a tea or something from the store everyone around is deathly silent and unthinking, old bright stores and landmarks imply a past happiness that's no longer there

theres an abandoned pool in my city that has its logo from the 2000s still and its become nothing but a dark hideout for homeless and junkies

every store or market is occupied by machine-like pajeets, man-like succubi and people with genuinely no personality and even the washed up old white people who used to be the progenitors of western pop culture (like metallica, jackass, harry potter, lotr, austin powers etc) are all drugged out or not living in my city anymore
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Are you ashamed of your nationality ?

I am a slav from eastern europe so yes i hate being a 'slav', why couldn't i be born in a country with actual achievements like france, america, spain, italy or even korea
when i go outside my shithole and when some other people recognize I am from an irrelevant eastern European shithole they just have nothing to say and sometimes they look down at me.
god i hate being myself, at least Wizards and NEETs in other countries can take pride in being a certain nationality.
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What do you guys think of reddit?

Why does 4chan hates reddit so much? Sure 99% of the site is garbage but there's some good stuff in there once in a while (just like 4chan come to think of it). You can't even mention reddit without 5 posters telling you to "go back", it's really annoying.
For the record I've been on 4chan since 2009 and only really started browsing reddit about 3 years ago, and don't even have an account. But I'm of the opinion you should enjoy good content no matter where it comes from. If some gay SJW with pink hair cured cancer, I would be thankful for it even if he's a retard.
What is wizchan's optinion of reddit?
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politics in the age of social media is just retarded

>eceleb uses a talking point from the alt media in public
>bunch of nobodies on social media start the easily offended reacts
>MSM runs the hitpiece - "This is extremely dangerous to our [insert xyz]"
>globohomo inc steps in and shuts it down
>polfags glued to the computer screen for the next week; WE DID IT GUISE!!!!

The happenings are all the same at this point. Modern day "politics" is just a social media circus of influencers making small gestures amplified way out of proportion for powerless nobodies and agenda-pushers to bitch over. Meanwhile the real business of government is almost completely forgotten from the conversation
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clearing antipsychotic brainfog

Any misters here have experience or knowledge of tapering off antipsychotics?

I (the legit tru wizzie) got put on them following a psychotic episode. Now that I'm off, I have kind of a lightheaded brainfog and it's clear I'm not exactly operating at baseline anymore. Pill-pusher claims it's high dopamine

Mister, Haaaaaaalllp!!!
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I just realized that drinking to get drunk is not worth it

It's a waste of time and money, it doesn't solve or help me with anything, it's a nice buzz, but too short lived.
I never had any "insight" I didn't already know before hand.
It doesn't really help with work or study, the nights I drink to get drunk end up with me listening to music, watching a movie and sleeping it off, the occasions I did work on something were very rare and I would probably have done better if I had just napped before or drunk a cup of coffee.
There are a couple of drinks that I like, but from now on I'm not getting drunk anymore, at least for me it's pretty stupid and useless.
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What are your guys thoughts on the "manosphere" idiots like pic related gaining huge popularity among normalfag psychopaths and kids/zoomers. Every comment seems to praise them as some sort of god or father figure. I didn't expect normalfags to like this sort of figures that much.

So, in the future are the kids going to grow up being focused on money, hoes, scams and overall being assholes even more so compared to today? The future looks bleak
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Never gonna work

I'm 35 and have never worked a day in my life. Nor do I intend to, despite being overly qualified. Spend my whole day playing old vidya and reading manga.
I've only had 2 shirts, 2 pairs of pants and 2 pairs of shoes for the past 10 years, which I wash alternatively.

Modest inheritance + don't spend too much. 50€ a month in food give or take, 10-20 running water, 15 internet. Thank fuck I don't pay for energy, I bought solar panels and batteries a long time ago.
I don't eat much because I have my sugar spikes under control and am not too tall. Most days I just eat a few eggs and some veggies. I try not to overexercise in order to eat less, too.
24 eggs = 4 euro here -> I eat 150 eggs a month, which means I spend 25 euro in eggs, that's half my protein
chickpeas are 2 eur a kilo, I eat 3 kilos a month, which means I spend 6 euros on chickpeas
This with olive oil is over half my calories and all of my protein, and I still have around 15 euros to spare on leafy greens and nuts every now and then, when they're cheap because they're about to go bad. When I do eat meat I spend a bit more than 50 though, but I eat it rarely.

I have an old PC, I only play old vidya, But I try to get as much out of them as possible.
Same few games for ages:
Fallout New vegas
TES: Morrowind and Oblivion
Project Zomboid
Darkest Dungeon
Hollow Knight
M&B: Warband + mods
and a bunch of retro shooters like DOOM
I'm technically a leech, only my parents aren't alive. I just don't spend much. Internet is a cheap source of entertainment, so is hiking every now and then.
My shedule: Steady sleeping schedule, exercise every morning, sunbathe every afternoon, play in between, hike on weekends. Life is good.
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NPC Theory

What if everyone in the world as you know it is merely a soulless vessel which reflects that person from their reality?

In your universe, this post is made by a mirror of me. In my universe, everyone else is mindless flesh and bone NPCs following the script of their PC.

Kind of going off the theory of relativity here. I always wondered why I'm the one in a body, viewing the world in first person? The answer I theorize is that I'm the only PC here in this universe. All PCs from their respective universe gather on the internet.
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>Unlawfully arrested for refusing to wear a mask
>The arresting marshal committed a felony against me in this criminal act
>No one cares
>Called the FBI
>Called the local police
>And nobody is helping me

>Have a couple of lawsuits I can file against Walmart for a collective $1M USD

>They would take 2~3 years to probably complete
>Again, nobody is helping me
>No lawyers would help me
>I had to study everything about law myself to even begin this process
>This isn't even mentioning the issue I had with getting arrested
>I feel like nothing will happen anyway

I would probably be a wizard by the time my lawsuits are done, including whatever I would have to do with my unlawful arrest, and I am really starting to question if I should even bother. This country, the USA, is so incredibly unfair, unjust, and anti-Christian that I just want to say fuck it and run away.

I know I am right in these legal situations that I have brought up. I know that I should get paid out for stomping these retards in court. I highly doubt that will happen, though, after having to deal with these people personally. It feels mostly like I am talking with people that don't give a fuck, and one judge even had the audacity to mention that he could charge me with contempt of court.

I'm even starting to think the money is not worth my time or the stress involved. I get roughly a million dollars—for what? Do I even NEED a million dollars?

>inb4 "give me the million dollars instead"

If you respond with something like this, you are too stupid, period. Just too stupid.
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Stagnant brain

Whenever I roam the streets I feel some tickling idunnowhat inside me that keeps telling me that I have something clogged in my head I am not living up to. But I do not know if this is real or just a residual filth from that part of me I have been furiously rejecting due to it's resemblance to the cattle world.

Last time I was amongst normies I felt it constantly, but I also was able to see how much fictional, forced and cucked their constant social feedback was from one to another and I got closer to think that this part was just a stagnant somatism from times ago, where I could not find a proper way to dispel certain types of anxiety that kept me stressed
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Carnivorism / Meat eating / Paleo


Getting popular lately. This is the opposite of a poor peasant's diet. Feudal lords ate mostly meat. Mongols had two food groups, meat and dairy, and they ate both of these raw & fermented.

Today I finally told my mom I will be making all my own food from now on, as I've been lazy and weak and have eaten junk food she buys. I'm in control of my diet now though. I'll eat a tiny amount of non-animal products when I feel like it, e.g. garlic, spicy peppers, dark chocolate, maybe mushrooms.

I noticed today that my teeth are looking much better. Spending hours eating beef belly probably took off tartar. It's difficult to rip off pieces when it's raw, lots of pulling. I ate it fresh one day and ate it fermented for one day the next. There was ammonia or something on the bottom, just like in that fermented shark stuff. I don't even feel so insecure about my teeth that I need to hide hide them anymore. They're still quite yellow and some are see through a bit. Pretty much okay if someone doesn't examine them closely. When I ate lots of meat and ate S.A.D. food, when I didn't brush my teeth at night I woke up and I had lots more plaque or something on my teeth than normal. I think vitamin k2 mk. 4 and vitamin d together might cause calcium to get into my teeth and make them white again. I'll report in a month or two. If that happens I might try eating bones a bit harder than fish spines and chicken wing tips.

Looking forward to receiving lamb brains this week. I hear when they are fermented for a while they taste like stinky cheese.
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Here we shall discuss how to severe our attachments to this world and existence. Plus asceticism techniques, how to be enlightened in various ways and how to achieve inner peace. Stoicism, epicureanism and Buddhism or eastern religion experts are welcome, generally everyone whose aim is achieving ataraxia in some way.

So I kind of got disillusioned with this whole deal a while back and started to live by Nietzsche's thoughts that happiness or peace of the mind shouldn't be the most important thing. But as I lived like this it dawned on me: I am happy this way - I am happy because I don't try to be happy as I did before. So in a paradox manner I became even more peaceful and calmer, even though I didn't have it as my goal, in fact I had the opposite in mind. Wanting to reach Nirvana or Ataraxia is a desire in itself and focusing on it too much or getting too attached to it can lead one to unhappiness just the same as any other desire or fixation or attachment. I find this very amusing and hilarious.

What works for you guys? How do you calm yourself and how do you remain happy despite all the horrible things of this existence? Any insight? Any role models? For me it is Diogenes. When you can masturbate in public without any shame and can live in a barrel then you can say you overcame this world.
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a stupid moderator

I wrote a very good thread about NPC Theory.

Some stupid head moderator just deleted it. Everything I wrote. Gone. I was crying for hours. I spent so much time making that post and it just got deleted by a dick mod.

Fuck you dick mod.
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Good morning.
is this really one of wizchan mods?
Please answer so I can stop coming to this site. I don't like nigger looking faggots moderating a site for virgins.
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Wizard internet communities

I've been using english speaking internet sites since 11 years already, im 29. My main language is spanish, and to navigate english based internet was certainly an advantage. The problem is that i've became disappointed and tired with the english speaking crowd, its really difficult to find communities that are not conditioned by anglo culture, and all the things that encompasses (consumerism, ruthless competitiveness, hollywood-style pretentions, politics, virgin hate, etc).

I want to explore new horizonts. I want to learn a language that lets me find more wizard communities or navigating sites that are more aligned with the wizard philosophy. From what i know at the moment, finland can be sort of there.

If you are a non-american wizard, do you think your country has internet communities that have better discourse than english ones, or even more wizardlike sites? And if not, which countries do you think are the closest?
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What was your xp on college? Should I drop out?

I know this site is for 30 year olds only, but thats why Im here, to ask you a very important question.
I am a 21 year old crab. I know Ill turn into a wiz in 9 more years. Heres the thing…If I cant make connections with people in college and am the scum of society, I dont think its worth contuining my major, reddit says I shouldnt drop out, but reddit is full of normies who have it easy at life making connections.
What should I do? Drop out or stay?
Whats the most wise thing to do?
I have diagnosed schizophrenia and my parents and theraphists already said that it was okay if I drop out. Honestly, Im considering it because Im hating it, I already tried 2 times and failed the first majors I chose, I dont have hope for the next ones.
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Making sense of wizardry

Okay, so you're a wizard. What does that say about you?

>Is society's rejection of you proof that you're a bad person?

>Is your inability to attract a mate proof of your genetic inferiority?
>Are wizards poor examples of humans?

About 3% of all men will be virgins in their 30s. Are we truly the worst of the worst? The unlovables? Does this make us bad or worthless?
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Any wizzies that used to be atheists but stopped? If you are willing to share, what made you change?
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Wizard powers

What wizard powers have you been granted? Personally, I have an overwhelmingly intense imagination. I have an imaginary world I've been working on since I was a teen. It's 1000s of oages long, spans multiple novels and I have encyclopaedias for the plants and animals.
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Does anyone has a complete history of wizchan and wizardchan? I'm curious about the origins and all about the "online wizard culture"
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The literary movement of our time will be a backlash against tech induced alienation, but it will be so incohate and immature it will be the most cringy shit fr fr. It will be a Kaczynski tier hysterical backlash of retards and LARPers going to live in the woods, whipping themselves and avoiding stimulation as much as possible like John the Savage from Brave New World.

Zoomers will grow up with fried brains from Cocomelon, TikTok, porn and just generalized constant stimulation. They'll perceive something is wrong but not be able to put it in words. They'll stumble across anprim kaczynski shit while googling around online and in a fit of hysterical depressive passion, will smash every electronic device they own and go to the forest. They'll be hermits and be paranoid of everything, every person approaching their little copse will be perceived as temptation back to their mind numbing gooning childhood. It'll be a sort of schizophrenic conservatism, they'll be too fucked up to have families, wives, kids. The best they can hope for is being weird reclusive monks, constantly paranoid, reacting to technology like vampires to the sunlight. They'll be permanent recovered drug addicts, and like every recovered drug addict, they'll pine for their 15 year old life gooning on TikTok and being groomed on discord at 3am on a schoolnight even if they can't admit it themselves.

That's what will come of this generation, that's their fate.
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They gay mod clique isn't afraid of posting their photos in the wizchan hidden board anymore and gay roleplay.
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wizard's life stories

So, wizbros, what's your life story? Are you "odd" since you're young? Trouble with family? Drugs? Never actually fit in? What's your story?
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Homeless upgrade

Thought about digging a mine or occupying an abandoned one to live inside it instead of the streets.

What should I carry with me?
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what wiz-path should i go down?

maxon crumb - live in a run down apartment and beg on the street for money
christopher thomas knight - live in a tent in the woods and steal food from normal fags to survive
daniel suelo - live in a desert or cave and survive on dumpster food
ricardo lopez - live in an apartment and become an exterminator or some wage cuck

what path should i take?
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I just figured it out

The lowly intelligent are soulless. They are a corruption in earth meant to destroy the literal world/nature. They are a semi sentient hive_mind of an extra dimensional source interconnected, now you know And now they know! careful.
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How do I completely rid myself of any attatchments to the normalfag world. I've already accepted love doesnt exist, that the world was created to generate suffering to feed the demiurge, Im losing attracting to 3dpd as well, but still how do I become truly deattatched to the normalfag world.
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What was the saddest stuff that you've passed through because you're a wizard?
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Any1 here feels bad about how much time they wasted on philosophy, religions, or generally on seeking the "ultimate truth"? I can't take it seriously anymore. It seems to me like meaningless word-plays, all of it, politics, philosophy, everything. So much shit that doesn't have anything to do with my life, you know what I mean? Should have just read 07th expansion VNs or watched cartoons/movies instead of wasting my time on trying to become an intellectual or wise person.
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Jeffery dahmer the warlock

Anyone watched the netflix series and feel related to him lonely,no friends suck at education,military discharge, alcoholic, his family sucks, his fucking mom fucked him up with the poison pills she took.
except the homosexuality and killing part of course.

>Jeffery dahmer A.K.A the monster, the neurotypical warlock autstic schizo who failed to be normfag turned this into rage against the niggers.
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I know i know sounds like schizo topic but for real don't u get feelings of being alienated and people like fucking robots, cogs in a monster machine and you ask yourself is everything real?
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Silence (and media in general)

Any wizards experimented with extended periods of silence? I'm talking months and months of no music, podcasts, videos, etc.

I wish to no longer stimulate the social faculties of my brain at all. Hence, I wish eventually phase out images of humans. I've already cut out online communication quite effectively, and am breaking the streak briefly to acquire this information.

I am certain I will feel more depressed and suicidal in the first few days of silence, but have any wizzies experienced what happens afterwards? Is there a sense of peace and disconnect that follows?
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outdoor wiz countries/ US states

what place would be ideal to set oneself up to where you could live in the woods and only come to town when you need to work a bit to buy supplies? i loathe cars so it would be nice if one isnt required to get places
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How to cultivate the energy to fight inertia?

I'm a soon to be ex-NEET and I have come to terms that, yes, there are things I want to achieve before dying, there are things I "deem" worth it, places I want to visit, things I want to learn and do.
But, none of that will be possible without first fighting this enormous inertia of NEETDOM.
How to stay consistent? I've tried many things over the years, even professional help and medication, none successful, I can't deny that I did enjoy a lot of my time as a NEET, because I did, but for me it's time for a new chapter.
I don't mind so much being a wizard apprentice, actually I never did minded that part, I have some weird views on sex and it's futility, so I was fortunate enough to never have even gone through the "angry KV teenager phase", I was just fine with it, but the NEET part was not planned, I did not see that coming. I morphed into a NEET, and before I knew it, boom, I was trapped. I don't mind being alone, but NEETDOM is now trapping me, stopping me from developing, there is this feeling of wanting to get out of this vicious cycle, but a huge difficulty, especially in maintaining consistency.
Any advice, story or resources are welcomed.
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The dog menace

A lot of wizards will likely get dogs to fight the loneliness. Please do not. Dogs are terrible creatures that regularly maul children. They are also noisy and disease-ridden. "A dog is a man's best friend" is just marketing from yhe pet industry to get you to waste money on an animal that only sees you as a food source.
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Wizardry and the black pill

What is the correlation of being a wizard and being ugly? Does a handsome wizard exist or it's impossible? What's the wizard consensus?
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What's your age and your country? Simple as, no hiding question or anything, just what's your age and country? My? I'm 28 years old from Brazil.
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wizards are not neurotypical

Wizards are not neurotypical, I'm starting to realize that wizard are not neurotypical, or I'm wrong? Need some insight on that question.
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Any of my fellow wizards ever been to jail? I've been charged with 2 DWIs in the last two months, no prior criminal history. I will probably be given a sentence of a few weeks or months in county jail unless the judge shows some leniency and sentences me to rehab instead. I have been to jail but not for more than a day at a time. What's an extended stay like? I will be a sheep amongst wolves, I am not violent or confrontational, and this jail is one of the most violent in the whole country. The predominant demographic in here seems to be Hispanic. I am Hispanic as well and speak fluent Spanish, so maybe I can make some buddies in there for protection.
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Given you have money and the kid isn't an infant and/or you still have a living parent with you would you adopt a kid if you had the ability to do so? Late stage wizardry on your own sounds terrifying. Do you think a wizard can be a good single dad for some orphan for at least a few years till he returns to solitude?
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how does a wiz become a neet?

been working for a couple years now in manual labor and feel like shit all the time because of it. couldnt care less if i get paid well my health is invaluable compared to work. How can a wiz manage to live without having to work? or at the very least work as little as possible in a job with little to no stress? welfare? office job?
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This board is fucking dying, what happened to half of the user base here? killed themselves???
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Wizards who lived with their parents until they died, how did your life change once they were gone?
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The fear of learning magic is often more difficult then learning magic itself

And no this is not only me, I've talked with a lot of magic practitioners and warlocks in the past, this seems to be a recurrent theme that is hard to admit. A lot of us procrastinate copious amounts of times, when most of the time all you have to do is take the spell or craft and start using it… No amount of book procrastinating will ever replace the practical side of magic. I get angry with myself often because of this. Why all of this irrational fear? All you really have to do is to practice magic to get good at magic.(And disregard female (it goes without saying it)).
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Have any /wiz/ards gotten fit?

Have any /wiz/ards spent time and effort and gotten fit? Has it changed your mental outlook at all?
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just something i wanted to say

Sexually I still get erections ( I don't watch porn btw), I have a libido but I don't care for sex. But romantically… I just feel fine being alone. Like maybe it's all these years being alone made me like this but this is just how I am. I have no romantically interests whatsoever. I feel completely fine with my own company.And I feel like I never see people like me out there at all.
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Stress Management

How do you guys handle your stress? Every time something new happens in my life and fucks up my routine I end up making costly mistakes such as breaking something expensive or almost getting fired from my job. It's been this way since I was a teenager and I'm in my 30s now. It's annoying because it ends up being a subconscious thing too. All it takes is for one major change to happen and boom, I ultimately fuck something up that I would never even imagine being able to fuck up.
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We were rejected by society
No one took us seriously
Invading our soul with humiliation
Hitting us harder than any kind of pain
They even tried to changed us
Religion, meds, "morality", propaganda
And even if they did, the truth is
we are and always will be
And as one, I may do my true purpose someday
Thought I would kill myself
I had enough of clowns in this world
I decided I should inflict my suffering on others
They'll get what they deserve
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School education and real intelligence

It's horrible to see how everyone fawns over-educated academics and their titles, thinking education means one is intelligent, mature and wise.I got to know a professor of literature on /lit/ and he was just your basic, entitled, tantruming 4chan poster with little insight on human life beyond his own experience. This opened my eyes.Doctors are the worst. They worship succubi and get all the glory in society, but the hidden truth is that med students are the biggest party animals and worst turbo normies. They enroll in med school to get status money and pussy. That pretty much says all about their character. Smarter people choose math and physics. But not even a degree in physics guarantees you're an actual seeker of truth. I'm actually an ex physics student so please take that into consideration before you think it's clever to mention Dunning-Kruger.

I'm not posting this out of arrogance or a false sense of superiority I actually think I'm some sort of a brainlet That's exactly what makes me sad beyond words to see that everyone I've ever respected turns out to be more emotional and more prone to logical fallacies than me. It's like there's no hope. All my life I've wanted humans to be smart so bad Only people who have almost died seem to have grasped actual wisdom Education has nothing to do with it.

As a Wiz. do you think you're smarter than the average normalfag despite not doing good at school?
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Downloading information into your brain

I have a theory. I think it might be possible to put myself in a suggestive/hypnotic state, in a dark room with only a computer screen and headphones on my ears. I play some kind of educational or informational video, and just let it go into my ears without thinking about anything at all.

Think it would work?
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Anyone a wizard in part due to self harm? I have mutilated my legs with cutting addiction, making it impossible to ever show my body to anyone.

I quit cutting for like a year but I'm diving back in because it feels good and I have nothing to lose.
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You are no better than the people you critizise

Among normal people you have to fit certain criteria to fit in. You have to be outgoing, you have to dress and look a certain way, you have to be happy, etc. Among imageboard loser crowds you have to have been browsing these sites since the beginning, you have to be into and knowledgeable about anime, computers and videogames, you have to use linux, you have to be into obscure media and music, you have to be into breakcore. Of course you don't have to fit all the criteria and what makes someone cool changes slightly from person to person, but you're given a subconscious score based on these things. It's a different social hierarchy, one that attempts to be the opposite of the mainstream one, but it's the same old system. I'm a boring person who browses discord servers and youtube all day on his windows laptop. I use discord, but only talk to 1 person in dms and then make a couple of posts in 2 servers once every couple of days. I'm not knowledgeable about any type of media either. I like anime succubus images, but don't watch much anime. This means I'm a "normalfag" here and a "loser" in the outside world. I wish there was a community that accepted you regardless of what you're like, but that goes against human nature.
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Question for my fellow shut-ins

Do you ever wonder what it will be like to get old, I mean truly old, and never have a lifetime of experiences to look back on and reminisce about? If you end up in some old folks home and some person asks you about your life, what will you have to tell them? Some old childhood stories so dusty and decrepit you can barely remember them? You could talk about what your opinions about the world are, based on what you've read, but when it comes to talking about how you actually impacted the world or influenced it? What will you have to say? What good is having opinions on stuff if it never leads to any sort of actionable outcome?

I have realized by now my cowardice means I will probably never kill myself. I will just continue on like this for perhaps the rest of my life. This prospect has started to terrify me.

Ultimately it is your actions that define you and give you a sense of self and belonging in the world. A year is a long time, you could do a lot of stuff in it and if you have many dozens of years of life it's only natural to rack up experiences that test your character and show you who you are. I don't like thinking that I was just a coward who was too afraid to put myself to the test and just hid away and rotted. It's almost like you're not even a real person, just some ghost that never even existed.

I feel an immense sense of loss when imagining myself ending up like this. I can't even remember my life since the 10+ years I became a shut-in. It all just blurs together. What if that's what it will be like when I'm 80?

I'm wondering if anyone else can relate to this feeling of dread and unwillingness to become a ghost instead of a full person?