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 No.274241

This is a thread dedicated to those poor souls among us who battle with chronic pain or illness alongside mental illness.

What do you suffer from? How do you cope with the pain? Have you come to terms with it? How do you see your future living with whatever it is that you have?

I suffer from chronic pelvic pain/chronic prostatitis/pudental neuralgia since I was 14 and I'm now 25. Its been 10 years of hell, pointless research and doctor after doctor appointment only to be dismissed and let down time after time. I have consumed tons worth of bibliography in an attempt to get to the bottom of this on my own, also in vain. I've tried all kinds of meds, psychotherapy, physical therapy, exercise to no avail. It has now began to dawn on me that there might be no fix, and this thought fills me with horror because i really can't imagine going through an entire life like this. The pain has progressively advanced to the point where I cant sit for more than 30 minutes at a time without wanting to jump out of my chair. I cant engage with my hobbies anymore because of it and the only thing Im left to do when I'm not spending agonizing hours sitting at work is lay in bed with a heat pad and look at my phone/ceiling. My genitals are constantly painful, numb and shrivelled up as if was outside in the freezing cold. Theres a constant dreadful feeling of tightness and a pulling sensation. I'm unable to maintain an erection, my libido has been obliterated and it feels like I've been completely robbed of my sexuality and masculinity since my early teens, which has deeply wounded my psyche in fucked up ways. I could go on forever but you get the gist. This thing has completely consumed my mind and my life. I dont want to wake up tomorrow. This is my story and my own little personal hell and purgatory. I'd like to hear about yours.

 No.274256

every time I read about the struggles with chronic pain I ask myself why doctors cant just turn the pain receptors off. I know that pain is important to avoid injury but surely any damage is preferable to not being able to do anything because of constant pain

 No.274259

Find a psychiatrist who will prescribe you morphine.

 No.274276

>>274256
Because they cant actually turn them off and painkilling meds that can do that have been demonized to an absurd extent.

 No.274338

kjb

 No.274339

Do you have any clear idea why your pain began in the first places?

 No.274847

>>274339
I have a tarlov cyst in the lumbar area of the spine, which may be pressing against nerve roots and causing neuropathy down the line. Symptoms started appearing when i was just 14 years old and got progressively worse over the years.

 No.274859

>What do you suffer from?
Moderate Tinnitus
>How do you cope with the pain?
Sound machines, fans, and recently CBT
>Have you come to terms with it?
Not sure if that's really possible. There are studies of Tinnitus negatively effecting concentration and recall.
The fact that it gets exacerbated(or sounds like it does) from external factors like stress, painkillers, and sudden very loud noises makes this seem impossible.
>How do you see your future living with whatever it is that you have?
Suicide is probable fate in the next 20 years if I'm reckless. If it doesn't get too much worse or AI helps speed up clinical trials regarding stem hair cell regeneration, continue as is.

Somedays though, as it can be, I'd imagine with any chronic condition, are fucking rough.

 No.274862

>>274847
Dang, that must suck. I looked it up and it seems the surgical procedures they have for it are risky. Have you tried surgery or considered getting it?

 No.274886

>>274862
I think I'm going to get it surgically removed. I have nothing to lose. If push comes to shove and things get worse I will have to muster up the courage to kill myself.

 No.274891

Daily back pain for two years. I just kind of put up with it. Not going to say much about it other than it's robbed me of the little youth I had left, as I'm only in my 20s.

 No.275228

>>274886
I hope things go well for you.

 No.275401

>>274241

20 years of chronic psoriasis, psoriatic arthritis, fibromyalgia, got complicated by a TB infection caused by incompetent's doctor prescribing wrong meds.. currently on new medication that helps a lot. Still have chronic chest pain but it's a lot more manageable. Fixing my diet helped a lot too.

Chronic pain really sucks bros, do what you can to mitigate it, do what you can to cope. Good luck.

 No.275402

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I assume from years of bad posture my neck started to feel sore one day and make grinding/popping sounds every time I turn it. Its tolerable right now but it will only get worse and surgery without fucking something up is nearly impossible. I thought shit like this only happens in your 50s+

 No.275404

>>275402
Please consider ingesting fish oil and cod liver oil. The body uses it to refresh joint lubrication, among other benefits.

 No.275421

>>275404
Sorry for this, I begun researching the effects of fish oils and came to find that they do more long-term harm than short-term good.

 No.275523

>>274241
started to get prescripted pain killers, how long before I get addicted to it? I'm so sick with my porn/masturbation addiction I would be ready to be a wreck to stop being a degenerate (tried over 200 times read books tried all kind of methods). I have lots of pain but I consider most of them relatively mild even if they ruined my life.

Anyway if I take one pill everyday how long will it take before I feel addicted?

 No.275528

>>274241
Hey bro. I've been in chronic pain now for 25 years give or take. I've been through the same useless doctors experience as you have and I know where you're coming from so let me give you the only real advice any one can.

Come to terms with it or kill yourself.

Those are your 2 options. You learn to accept the old you is dead and find ways to live as new you or you suicide. There is no in between. There is no healing potion or magical thing you can do to fix it. Grieve for your old life and accept your new one. What hobbies can THIS you do? What makes THIS you feel distracted from the pain? What goals can THIS you achieve and work towards?

There will be days you're angry and resentful. I'm there at the moment. I came out of a flare up, had a week and went into another flare up with more difficult to manage symptoms. Really hard to accept being bait and switched but such is chronic pain conditions. Another couple of months where I can't do much more than lay on the sofa ahoy..

Oh and get on disability. It makes life much much easier if you have a steady include. You can pay rent and buy things to help your living situation become more adapted to your condition.

 No.275529

>>275523
Pain medication is only addictive if it's used improperly. Using the addictive stuff as an emergency back up means you can go your whole life with barely any issues (constipation and maybe a bit of depression the days following as they're a downer). If you take a handful a day then you will quickly become dependant on them.

 No.275557

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Is anyone else hyper-aware of their heartbeat and is in constant tension? I feel like a balloon even though nothing is physically swollen.

I even went to the hospital thinking I am getting a heart attack only to be told they notice nothing unusual.

Also sometimes I get what I assume is a muscle spasm in my chest that makes me lose breath for a second and think I am getting a heart attack.

I can't do anything that requires focus because of this. I thought dealing with constant fatigue was bad but now I realize how lucky I was in the past when being tired was my only problem.

 No.275562

>>275557
Are you fat? Are you a tubby wubby fatty tatty? And do you drink a lot of caffeine and / or sugar, such as with cola?

 No.275564

>>275557
Drink a couple pints a day. Problem solved.

 No.275585

>>275557
Sounds like anxiety that is so bad you are getting physical symptoms from it. It must suck and I hope it goes away.

 No.275679

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Cholinergic urticaria. I break out in hives when I'm about to start sweating.

 No.275680

>>275557
No, but about a week ago I became hyper-aware of my left big toe and second biggest toe overlapping when I try to sleep.

I have to roll a sock around the toe whenever I go to sleep.

Time to get those toe spreader meme products.

 No.277893

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Highly likely fibromyalgia non-stop for the last 7 years. I don't even think the water under the bridges in my city is deep enough. Plus patrol and bystanders everywhere. Scary when balls sometimes hurt and nutting feels stronger than usual (fapping). As if the pressure is on prostate. The vomit feeling I've been having for 5 years before 2016 only intensified since. Had 165 high blood pressure episode outside about 2 years ago for the second time under the same circumstances. One day after parents threatened to get me a job. Nearly passed out but luckily was not far away from home. First time was accused of simulating and causing it advertently to remain NEET despite difficulties to do it and all measurements. Second time wasn't accused. Either he remembered his rant was ineffective and absurd the last time or he didn't. Cause he forgets many things.

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>>274241
just spent another hour suffering alone on the toilet bowl
and it's not over yet, i'll spend the evening going in and out of the toilet

don't forget guys, life is a gift!

 No.277909

>>277902
Kasodani Kyouko Touhou Project 13 Ten Desires smiling blushing shouting smug face map of Ohio, USA

 No.278004

>>274241
chronic pain, physical chronic pain is the number one worst thing a person can have. all other issues can't even happen without you first being healthy. I was born with a congenital case of lumbar spinal stenosis. my grandma's friend is a surgeon and he looked at my MRI's and said it looked like the back of a 93 year old man and the worst case he's ever seen. my family just spat on me saying its because i was lazy, fucking retards thats not how it works. ironically both my dad and my brother got back issues and their advice all failed them. I was 19 OP, and i could not sit longer than a minute without having to lay down. i lost 30 pounds in a month from not eating. it was hell. it was so bad. but thankfully. for me there was hope. a minimally invasive back surgery, a laminectomy (where they just cut off the part of the bone thats compressing the nerves) took all the pain away and i was better than ever after it, but it left me with a lot of sympathy for chronic pain patients.

 No.278036

>>275557
This sounds like a symptom I got after coming off meds.
It's lasted for several years though it has gotten better.
I'd suggest trying antihistamines.
I actually switched to a very restrictive low histamine diet for a while so I could tolerate the feelings.

 No.278467

This is only a brief guide about what I gathered. To deeper knowledge of why I am saying this all, you'll'ave to research on your own. This practices are designed to outcast most defficiencies known by wizkids away (muh brainfog, restlessness, etc), exceptuating only those given by genome:

>leave all diaries, inmediately

>leave grains: no wheat, corn or rice at all
>eat your foods within a reduced schedule, rather than through all the day long
>avoid starchy foods and red meats
>if not vegetarian, eat meats briefly: like once a week or two weeks
>the softest and wealthiest meats are white fish
>do you like nuts? They are still acidifiers…
>learn your ayurveda body type (dosha) and how to regulate it

If you want quick results, these are the shock therapies:
>fasting regularly (the body must slowly develop its ability to detox or adversities a.k.a "detox crisis" are to be faced. The same on mucusless diet.) using honey if dismay prone.
>colon enema
>HIIT exercise
>do not use domestic cooling/heating unless your body strictly requires so, due to some sickness or whatever else
>drink hot water, as much as it can be without harming your mouth, specially useful for early morning detox
>use temazcalli
>try (your body may not be done for so, so just try) keto diet
>avoid having breakfast inmediately after getting up, the body is still waking up

To further understand it all, next readings are recommended (or immediately needed depending on your degree of harm):
>every single book from Arnold Ehret
>"The Tao of Health, Sex and Longevity" by Dan Reid
>"Healing by Fasting" by Alexi Suvorin
>"The Power of Metabolism" by Frank Suarez
>"Grain Brain" by David Perlmutter
>"How I became young at sixty" by Horace Fletcher
>"Longevity diet" by Walter Longo
>"The cheese trap" by Neal Barnard
>"The Salt Fix" by James Nicolantonio
>"One meal a day" by Yoshinori Nagumo
>some books about specific organ cleansing by Andreas Moritz (the other ones I don't trust them much = up to you)
>"Lies my doctor told me" by Ken D. Berry
>"Flax oil as true aid against …" by Johanna Budwig
>"Lymphatic lessons" by Kelly Kennedy
>"The body has its reasons" by Therese Bertherat
>"The Wim Hof method" by Wim Hof

Synthetizing common ideas withhold by all these tomes you should have what school didn't taught about the easiest forms of medicine, enough to keep most chronic diseases at bay. It may require patience and alertness in order to avoid the lethal effects of sudden, uncontrolled detox crisis.

 No.278468

yet you're still schizophrenic…

 No.278555

barely sleep. At all, for years. Half the time I get none.

 No.280704

>>275402
A few weeks ago I got up too quickly and I pulled a muscle on the outside of my thigh. I felt a burn, like a band that stretched too much. And now I feel a burning pain 24/7. It's lasted a few weeks so far. I'm only 25 years old for fuck's sake. I took some NSAIDs and they didn't do shit. I also have other things that have started creaking, popping and hurting for no fucking reason.



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