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 No.248976[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here when you don't have enough to say for a topic and it's too depressing for the general crawl thread.
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 No.250903

ive just hit rock bottom. i cant go any lower than this unless i die. its funny, all the way downward i was so worried about this but now that im here i dont give a fuck. its liberating. i can always just kms if i get sick of this and it wouldnt change anything

 No.251003

My mom has a fully functional commercial space next to the house that she uses as her small therapy center (she's a legit therapist with a failure of a son lmao) but she barely uses it and it just sits there unused most of the time, I tell her that she can make it a proper growing business and all, appearing on google maps, using propaganda, pamphlets and shit but since shes afraid of "paying taxes and dealing with the government" she refuses to do so and only gives therapy to a couple of people that she got by references from family members, being mostly a NEET most of the time and doing fucking nothing productive except a day every week when she gives therapy.

I tell her that she has a golden opportunity to make some serious money and grow a proper business and I even offered my help to deal with a lot of things for free and she rejected my help, apparently she's happy being a mediocre human being with barely any clients because it's way comfier than being a successful person.

Now I know why I ended being such a failure, both my parents are failures and mediocre people just like me, I was destined to be this way, but at least now I know that it wasn't my fault, it was the horrible parenting and bad environment I had to deal with since I was born, literally everyone would have ended just like me given the same circumstances.

 No.251004

>>251003
Your mom can obviously get by without all that stress and you want her to become a wageslave? Your mom sounds like she has the right idea.

wizchan 2021

 No.251005

>>251004
Being self employed is the literal opposite of being a wageslave for someone else.

 No.251006

>>251005
Have you ever been self employed? it is a lot more headache than just clocking in and why on earth should his mom work more when she is obviously fine being a "NEET" mostly.


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 No.250138[Reply]

I had always felt like an other online but it wasn't until 2017+ and especially the past two years I feel old online.

It seems as if my fellow netizens all vanished and everyone is a teenager or talks like one. I do not socialize but when viewing comments on youtube or on other websites including sadly here I will notice strange use of language that is similar to baby babbling and doesn ot express more than a single idea.
>finna mad cap
For example is repeatedly posted on the interweb and I do not understand what any of it means.

I am unsure if age is entirely a factor and it could be the isolation that causes this feeling of being out of touch because I have stumbled across older people talking on reddit getting along fine.

People do not seem to want to have discussions anymore online and instead post a meme or use a few words to express themselves.

I cannot be the only one who is experiencing this phenomenon.
I think social media is the cause because a lot of us have been terminally online for decade(s).
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 No.250954

Internet culture has changed a lot in the past ten years. Not really because of young people, but because everything is locked down and controlled by big centralized services.

The internet was a magical lawless land in the late 90s and early 2000s, now it is just another boring normie hangout.

 No.250970

>>250138
It is natural, you grow old you lose touch with youth. The things you are interested started to differ from what youngsters are interested in.
One reason I lurk this place is precisely due to age. I cannot reasonate with zoomers on other anonymous image boards. I don't have social media, reddit nor am I active in drama ridden small communities like boards or discords. wizchan is one of the few places I can talk about 2000s without getting weirded out.

 No.250971

As an outcast you likely grow more and more divergent from society, with less and less people that you can relate to each year. Every day, people you previously related to, that are around your age, are committing suicide, or become integrated into the borg cube. After a certain point, relatable people give up on finding each other in a game theoretic feedback loop: the only person that you would want to find would be unfindable because they wouldnt be participating in this decrepit shithole of the internet, so then you yourself should stop looking and make yourself unfindable

 No.250974

>>250970
>It is natural, you grow old you lose touch with youth. The things you are interested started to differ from what youngsters are interested in.
It's one thing to lose touch, it's another thing when the youth seem to be utterly lacking in creativity or imagination and just regurgitate the same shit over and over.

Everything they do online is recognizable.

 No.251002

>>250970
>It is natural, you grow old you lose touch with youth.
I don't think this is the same at all. I am still very much a youth and this exact feeling I have that I presume OP has also has no boundaries.

Maybe nothing has changed except not valuing being among my kin (NEET outcasts)as if I realized the bond was superficial but I cannot put my finger down on this being the cause. There has both been a change internally and externally. The external one is obvious we would not be feeling like everyone vanished if it was only growing older.

>>250971
This makes a lot of sense. I don't put myself out there unless 'here' is 'out there'. I have quit the internet before and found the only use it had was media to consume with the rest being a novel way to waste time.



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 No.250632[Reply]

Hello, I really need help right now, most specifically from any fellow NEETs on the board.

I live in a place where NEETbux isn't really viable, so the only way to be a NEET is leeching off of my parents. I know they wouldn't get to the point of kicking me out, so I'm safe in that regard, but still, the advice I need right now, from anyone who's been in the same situation, is: How do you overcome the shame and guilt?

I know they love me, and I do love them, even if I don't seem to do so in their eyes, they probably see me as ungrateful and lazy, a dissapointing failure of a son. I understand the reasons for this, they were loving parents and did their best, and I gave them lots of hope in my academic years, always being an outgoing student.

For me to turn out like this is something that'd naturally make them somewhat resentful of me, but the thing is, either I'm a NEET or I kill myself, and I though that being a NEET would hurt them less. I can't live a normal life anymore, studying, working, it's all just too much for me, it's a lifestyle that makes me breakdown regularly.

If I'm going to live, it has to be as a NEET, in my room, comfortable, but most of all: Safe. I'm at peace here in my bed, with my laptop, door and windows shut, no notifications on my phone, no one else awake at home but me, this is the closest I can get to bliss, if I'm going to do this whole living thing, it has to be like this.

Still, seeing my parent's dissapointment, being a manchild while all of my old peers move forward in life, getting good jobs, buying their own homes and starting families, I don't exactly want any of those things anymore, but it's hard to not feel inadequate and ashamed, it's hard to not have even worse self esteem, but most of all: Guilt.

What should I do? Killing myself is an option, but I don't want to break my parent's hearts.

However, living the life they want me to live, it's just too much for me, I don't want to suffer.
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 No.250985

>>250982
Very much so. Fortunes of course can turn anytime.
>>250983
>>250984
I think you are too harsh on me, but coming to middle age you think about death a lot, be it your parents death or your own.
Why I think about my parents death is not due to who is going to buy my tendies, but the sense of true loneliness. Many neets pretend that they are `lonely` but in reality, oftentimes they have parents. When they are truly gone so goes your last connection to world. And I think this is terrifying, maybe far more than being old and not being able to stand after you fall under your ass.
Having a family just to have someone to take care of you is narcissistic I agree with you on that.

 No.250987

>>250985
You don't even know what loneliness is, if you think neets can't feel lonely for having parents. Psychopath trash.

 No.250989

>>250987
They can feel lonely of course but it is not true loneliness. If you have a functioning family consider that a blessing. Many people don't have it and one day they will be gone. I think people dont appreciate their parents as much as they should.
>>250986
>>250988
>>250986
Okay I will stop feeding your bait and random insults enjoy talking to yourself

 No.250994

>>250632
Look into a job that would be NEET friendly and look for seasonal work this winter to keep family happy

 No.250995

>>250989
It's true loneliness you narcissistic trash.
Who are you to tell others they're not feeling true loneliness because they're parents are still alive. For you one might need to be the only single entity alive on this planet to experience true loneliness.



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 No.246967[Reply]

Anything related to therapy cna go here >///<
Have you found therapy helpful at all and if so why and if not why.

It seems to me that a therapist can help you if you have some things you want to achieve or gain in life but for whatever reason you will not go for them and also therapy can help people learn how to manage and identify their feelings but people who are self aware can do this by reading a book instead.
general therapy seems centered on establishing yourself within the community socially and working so you can buy things you want but what can it do for people who dont want anything? is it so crazy to think that just as some people like X and others Y there are also people who dont enjoy life at all. Do you think there will ever be therapy that helps people let go of life and end it peacefully.
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 No.250921

I was forced to go to therapy when I was like 13 years old. Basically a friend of my father told him that I looked fucking weird so he decided to send me to a therapist, otherwise he would have never forced me to go. All the thing was a waste of time, the therapist was just making pointless questions about my daily habits that were taking us no where. Her solution to my problem was to start cleaning my room. No joke, she came with this Jordan Peterson bullshit as the logical step to overcome my problems when in fact my "problems" are something more ingrained within my being. After all this bullshit even my own father decided to stop making me wasting time there.
Years later we were facing financial problems due to the cancer of my father (he sadly passed away) and so I was forced to get a job. I couldn't get the job due to various reasons. A therapist who is a friend of the family, gave me a really retarded advice: knock doors endlessly until I get thee job. How useful.

 No.250922

I quit going to my therapist I just quit going and felt too anxious to tell them I want to quit.

I think therapy is worth trying but to even try in therapy means you have to trawl through all the shit ones to get a good one and if you are paying that is just too much to ask of people.

Most therapists il look at you and think you are not enjoying life because you cant get what you want and to get what you want you need to build the skills to even try get what you want. They are stumped when you actually dont even want anything at all because it is not appealing to you.

Therapists function as fake friends for normalfags because tehy can vent about how they feel without social consequence. I have had a few psychologists decide against having me as a client after learning my medical history because they simply prefer a housewife who comes in and complains about the neighbor or some stupid shit.

 No.250924

>>250922
>I have had a few psychologists decide against having me as a client after learning my medical history because they simply prefer a housewife who comes in and complains about the neighbor or some stupid shit.

You finally realized it. Nobody cares about you, not even a therapist. They just want the easiest paycheck available like everybody else.

When will the rest of the population realize this planet is hell?

You matter in this world to others only if you make them money, give them benefits or have good looks.

Have none of these and you are treated worse than an animal.
There are dogs getting 5 star hotel vacations and pedicures while humans starve to death. So it's not an exaggeration, it's fact.
Nobody cares about average or below average people, sometimes not even your own parents.

 No.250925

>>250924
>You finally realized it. Nobody cares about you, not even a therapist.
Not quite sure why you felt this was worth pointing out when it is a given. One of the last conversations I had with my psych she asked if I felt she cared about me and I replied that I did not care and only cared that she would give her professional opinion.

Why does everyone seem obsessed with other people caring about them? I only talk to people if I do at all out of boredom and means anonymously at that.

 No.250972

>>246967
The only reason I attend therapy sessions are to maintain my neetbux. It achieves nothing aside from keeping the money flowing.
Then again, my problems cannot be resolved through words, nor even actions. I have simply accepted the inherent incompatibility with my mind and sustaining existence.
It'll be nice to end therapy when I can finally go through with quitting life. It's one big scam.



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 No.245109[Reply]

I've been living as a shut in neet since I was a preteen. I'm now in my late 30's and I still basically live like a kid. I'm not on disability and live with no income or allowance, no healthcare, I can't drive, I've never had a job before, never had any kind of relationship before real or egirl, kissless virgin, no friends. I can't go anywhere without being driven there by my parent and he doesn't take me anywhere except the grocery store. I've been trying to get him to take me to the library for about 7 years now but he won't do it.
He's also extremely toxic and treats me like a child. I can't leave the house after 5 pm, he constantly calls me a nigger and faggot. He keeps all his storage in my room so I have mountains of boxes all over my room. I made a online friend and they mailed me a toy, he opened my mail and then called me a faggot for weeks over the toy. He refuses to get me any kind of diagnosis so that I can try and get some kind of help.
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 No.250882

>>250110
>>250881
Warp, wane, born again. Stop with the warp, end with the wane. Remove the pain and cleanse the brain. Remove the grain and think again.

Oommmm……

 No.250892

>>250881
schizo spam

 No.250966

>>245109
Wtf why your dad would call you that unless you're an an actual nigger fag?

 No.250967

>>250966
it's pretty normal in australia, though i dont know if OP is there

 No.250968

You could earn money and get away from your father if you really wanted to.

Where do you live? Many countries provide free healthcare for people like you. I live in the US and it is what I needed to go to school and finally get away from my parents. Of course I lost all benefits the second I got a job.



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 No.249901[Reply]

please post your experiences with anti depressants here

i'm starting on them (Citalopram) tomorrow and im scared that ill gain weight from it
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 No.250961

20mg lexapro here
1 year taking it
I gained weight
My libido is off
I jerk off less


Plus
I'm not as sad
I'm not.as.emotional
My emotions are restricted in terms of severity

 No.250962

>>250958
>>250960
I took that and it made me lose weight

>>250959
not him but that didnt help me at all, felt like a sugar pill

 No.250963

>>250962
What dosage?

 No.250964

>>250952
I just think that psychotropic meds are hella scary and shouldnt be used in general, but If you say theyre helping you then thats great I guess

 No.250965

>>250963
I think it was 10 or 15mg



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 No.248819[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Discuss the ways out of our eternal suffering in this thread. Good death to everyone!
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 No.250899

>>250877
Don't have access to any other drugs
>>250878
Shit then

 No.250940

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I'm a retard. Help me choose the right rope. Is 6mm enough. I'm quite skinny, about 80kg

 No.250942

>>250941
Anyone that uses "spoon feed" on a social platform is a ginormous retard. The point of places like this, or any kind of forum, is to have discussions. Telling people that you won't "spoon feed" them is not only unnecessarily snotty/childish but it also discourages people from posting. Are you gonna tell someone to stop "necroing" when they post in an old thread too? Idiotic. I think you're the only person that need to fuck off with your need to try and apply baseless rules to people.

 No.250943

>>250942
Accurate in terms of the results but those type of people I am thankful for since it encouraged me to be self reliant which is essential
Made me conclude that talking is pointless

 No.250945

>>250940
looks sturdy enough
if anything buy paracord


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 No.250908[Reply]

Do you ever feel completely depleted if talking with normies for any reason in real life?

I feel like I need to rest for 1-2 weeks after being forced to talk to strangers for even half an hour.
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 No.250929

>>250908
Depleted and annoyed. All they do is go on about whatever is bothering them that day/week. I get more out of talking to a wall than talking to another human - outside of buying groceries or weed

 No.250931

>>250929
It could be you? I find people draining myself but still think back fondly on my conversations with strangers.

Conversations that has substance

 No.250934

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>>250908
It stresses me out as well.

I live alone out in the country, and sometimes I get a family member telling me, "I CAn't beLIeVe yOu CAn HAnDlE iT BEiNg sO QUieT!" One thing that really stressed me out about my stepmother was the fact that she ALWAYS had noise going, and if it was completely silent it "Bugged her."

I've had conversations with some people where they're trying to convince me to get a gf, and they consistently fall back on, "But aren't you afraid of dying alone?" And I just think, "NO." Looks of incredulity follows every time.

I remember when I used to live in the city, I would take the bus in to work each day, and there was this guy who came in with his wife. The moment the door opened you could hear her talking, and it would continue until they got off at their stop and the door closed behind them. Just nonstop fucking yakking away. I just remember looking at that guy and thinking, "What a hellish existence." After that moment, I started noticing a lot of guys stuck in that same nightmare. I don't get it. I have an incredibly difficult time empathizing with why guys _want_ gfs or marriage.

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 No.250939

>>250935
Funny image. 姦 also means rape.



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 No.247482[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Another day, another edition
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Previous Thread: >>243829
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 No.250914

>>250907
Do you have his original video? I remember there was a popular video of him discussing unemployment and being autistic. It must be a few years old now.

 No.250916

>>250900
I've worked overnights for four years. The only stress I have is being subjected to nigger music by normoids

 No.250918

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>>250752
I hope youre doing better

 No.250920

>>250918
Still feeling quite unwell. I haven't been back to work yet. At emergency and in a follow up visit with my gp it all got just put down to symptoms of anxiety and depression. They didn't exactly do much investigation, an ECG on my heart and physical examination for signs of brain injury/stroke.

I've been neglecting my physical and mental health for a long time.
I just hope I'm in general poor condition/ run down rather than something sinister going on. I need to really fix my health, stop smoking and binge eating. I am finding it quite difficult to get started and get any momentum going. I'm just so set in my ways and apathetic.

 No.250933

>>250752
I had a dream I was perched up on an abandoned concrete high rise overlooking a landscape not unlike this. My life would be ace if I could trigger those dreams on command!


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 No.249167[Reply]

I literally just did nothing but sit on the computer beating my dick all day. Again.

Tired of this shit.
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 No.250869

rarely masturbate but spent an entire day jerking off to hentai. I was jerking off so much I could not even get hard anymore and had to take a 5 minute break from touching myself to even get semi hard again.

 No.250893

humans are insanely adaptable and what separates us from the rest of life is our capacity for infinite and evolving dissatisfaction

 No.250905

>addicted to masturbation
>but utterly bored of porn
>feel unfulfilled every time
I feared this day would come. I've cranked it to everything under the sun and nothing excites me anymore. Time to try and quit cold turkey.

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 No.250913

>>250893
It's a real interesting fact that the extent of suffering can not only increase in quantity, but also it can qualitatively change into new and creative pains forever.



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