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 No.287504[Reply]

I relate a lot with old inc_els because most of them don't even want relationships anymore, they've accepted that past a certain point there is no coming back, once you've spent your entire life bullied and ostracized and mocked for how you look or being introverted and entered adult age not knowing real friendships or love from parents, there is really no rainbow in the dark or light at the end of the tunnel.

Your personality is shaped, your memories are painful so you want to erase the past or pretend that it didn't happen, you are like an abused and neglected kid who starts to sweat and becoming increasingly anxious as the time to go back from work for his dad approaches.

Lot of pain and trauma. You are better off alone at that point, engaging in hobbies, distracted with work or in some fantasy world.

There is no cure.

You can't even relate or feel an attachment for this world and what it has to offer. You are almost prepared to leave and don't care. How can you care when you carry a broken soul within you.

There is no return because the place you left was doomed to be hell for you, from the very beginning and you know it's best once you accept that it wasn't your fault and stop blaming yourself. What can you do when you are born a wiz.

Society doesn't care. You've been left alone.
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 No.289863

>>289860
>I think western influence, especially porn plays a huge part in this.
Porn isn't Western. The oldest examples are from Arabian and Iranian paintings and tapestry, with much of it even being homoerotic in a full dick-in-ass sense. The porn industry today is almost entirely owned by Jewish Israelis who have been outspoken in how they're aware that their pornography is excellent at undermining and controlling Western peoples and religions. In this sense pornography is just as Semitic as Islam itself. Good on the Sunnis etc for trying to eradicate its influence from their nations but in reality it all begun there and is propagated entirely by non-Westerners.

 No.289864

>>289862
You're a delusional leftist retard.

 No.289867

>>289864
Oh, it's you again, the liberal pro-LGBT hippie who claims anyone is either a /po/cuck naziboo, or a "leftist" which you insist is different from all other kinds of left-wing ideology

 No.289868

>>289863
>Porn isn't Western. The oldest examples are from Arabian and Iranian paintings and tapestry, with much of it even being homoerotic in a full dick-in-ass sense.
I think you're on to something considering that there is no actual ancient pornographic depictions from the west. Western cultures have sculptures with flacid penises and no provocative or suggestive poses.

Those muslim cultures however had a lot of that even in ancient egyptian art you can find depictions of apparent gay dick sucking and stuff. There generally seems to be a lot more coomer and porn stuff in ancient arab literature.

 No.289954

>>289863
>>289868
Looked further into it and found some of said paintings lol. Also found some interesting stuff such as turkish and arab communities having crossdressers who danced and got fucked by other guys even centuries ago, they have a whole tradition of this. Theres even an old painting of several crosdressing dudes making a circle by sticking their dicks in each others butts lololol.

>>289862
I agree with you on the gay crossdresser stuff having an ancient history in islamic countries that lasts to this day but muslims still prosecute gays and muslim immigrants are usually highly hostile towards gays and there have been several occasions where they killed their own if one came out to be gay such as the two muslims who got stabbed by their own people in Birmingham, England.

Muslims are usually huge hypocrites who preach things they never practice and shit on westerners despite having a long degenerate history themselves but you can see a big increase in young arabs who do porn and other stuff.



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 No.289777[Reply]

I just want to be human. Every day I wake up and it goes the same way: pre-made meals or super low effort food, same 1 video game I keep playing, browsing imageboards while watching a stream… at the end of every day I am so disgusted by how dull it all was that it feels impossible that I will spend another day like this only to repeat it. Now I am suddenly 32 and it feels unbelivable. I feel regret only to then realize that I can't deviate from this routine. The other day I FINALLY unboxed the console I bought 4 years ago and that actually took me mental effort. I don't even think I have autism that could excuse this. I have things I want to do but doing something that won't give me any instant gratification feels simply impossible. Could it be because of anhedonia? I tried to read a book I bought but reading it I feel nothing even if it interests me. I could honestly just lie in bed all day. Thinking about doing anything, even something that should be entertaining doesn't excite me. Without anything I am physically passionate about, things I have a deep knowledge in, life experience I just don't feel like a person.
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 No.289897

>>289896
Well I have no choice but to believe in it. Just my original influences :)

 No.289898

>>289896
free will exists. you can prove this to yourself by turning off your pc

 No.289899

>>289898
i can't free will myself one million dollars to be happy

 No.289900

>>289898
turning it off would be a result of *your* message

 No.289901

>>289834
A lot of people wouldn't frame it as squalor. Satisfaction of your belongings depends on what you chose to value, really.



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 No.289084[Reply]

why should i continue on?
I wouldnt say im actively suicidal, but i find it hard to find a reason to go on for.
whats your reason?
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 No.289322

>>289321
Sort of*

 No.289325

>>289084
Committing suicide is fairly difficult. I don't think this life has anything for me, I could be wrong, so just going to ride it out until I die.

 No.289457

>>289084
Why not? I understand that if your life is horrible then you will want to take a shortcut to the afterlife, but if your life is just boring or joyless, then that is fixable. Myself, I've no real reason to live, I'm just coasting and taking it as easy as I can until my mother dies, then I will likely just check out myself.

 No.289458

FOMO.

 No.289885

>>289086
To not have to suffer for another 40-50 years. That's a start.



 No.289757[Reply]

Have any wizards here noticed that the world feels much quieter today than it did 4-5 years ago. Did the (((vaccine))) really kill of a large percentage of the population? Are people not going outside as often anymore? When I go walking in various places there are uniformly less people in these places than what was customary only a few years ago.
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 No.289784

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but.. the world is exploding.

There are several major wars going on, the major ones being the Ukraine war and the Palatinate war but make no mistake a lot of smaller countries are trying their luck while the big boys are distracted.

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>>289784
>palatinate
Damn, didn't even know there was a war there, I'm so out of touch

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>>289788
you know what i meant, Palestine, the one Israel is blowing up.

dont be a spelling national socialist.

support Zion.

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 No.289767[Reply]

Hey Wizards! Lately I have not been doing very well mentally, I have been thinking about quitting my job but if I do that my parents will be mad at me plus it is hard to find a job for me.

Why was I born this way? With such a negative outlook on life? With this way of acting different from others?

 No.289768

>>289767
You're exactly me, most people are in the same boat as you but they don't quit cause they have responsibilities. Your parents will be gone soon and you have to work for yourself eventually. Sorry man life just simply sucks and we got to do what we can.

 No.289769

>>289767
Join mental institutions then ask for disability

 No.289770

I did that and now I'm living on savings. It's really nice being able to NEET and do whatever I want, but I don't know what I'm going to do when the money runs out. I can't handle interviews or social situations at all, before, during or after, it feels like sprinkling extra trauma on an already broken human being. Wouldn't matter if I could pass off as normal, but no one will hire me because I'm a walking red flag.

 No.289773

dont quit job
this is a test

it is fine to get fired, but dont quit

just stop giving a fuck

 No.289774

>I have been thinking about quitting my job but if I do that my parents will be mad at me plus it is hard to find a job for me.

I suppose that you're very young. That's how it started for me; the next step was to admit my "depression" to my parents (didn't have a better terminology at the time, and it's not needed to talk to your parents anyway), then I did some years of psychotherapy, then psychiatry, etc., with no result of course, but they were needed to prove the "mental illness".

And now I have NEETbux. It's a very long way to go, but it's the only way.

Unless you are not that bad and you can keep holding on like most normalfags do in their lives.



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 No.289564[Reply]

When I was younger, around 20-25 years old, I was highly driven, motivated, outgoing, hopeful and physically fit. I had even graduated college. Then, the year I turned 26, I destroyed my right shoulder, left leg, totaled my car, dropped out of the trade school I was in, lost my job, became an alcoholic, and was THIS close to killing myself. Obviously I didn't since I'm posting here now at 29. I even went back to school and graduated for the trade and got the "dream job." Also stopped drinking 3 months ago.

However. since that year I haven't felt that happiness I once had. All of the things I had built up for myself were taken away all at once. I used to enjoy doing multiple martial arts, running, swimming, gaming, and learning new things. I just don't get the same enjoyment or excitement out of any of that stuff anymore. I don't know what to do any more. Do I just keep living even though I hate it? Just so I don't make my mother upset that I killed myself? It's just not good any more. Hasn't been for years.
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 No.289617

>>289616
I would also like to add that if you need anyone to talk to, hmu.

 No.289638

>>289616
i love God.

all of normalmaxxing lifestyle prologues are an aversion to and enmity with God.

wizardly being the anti-thesis of normalmax, and normalmax being extreme aversion to God, and going against Him in all their body and mind and spirit.

love the Lord with all your body and mind and spirit; this is the path of wizardy.

bible is a powerful tome.

 No.289667

>>289616
>>289638
lol and now christianfags too
someone burn this thread

 No.289726

>>289616
And it is not what you do (but of course action follows faith), but what HE DID, DOES, and WILL DO.

 No.289747

>>289616
proud of you anon



 No.289731[Reply]

Living with parents right now. They were the one that plunged me into the pits of hell in the first place by interfering with my projects, aspirations, friendship, routines, etc (I already forgotten so much and trying to remember just makes my head hurt and wanna cry). I should've had finished college in time if not for their interference, now that I've graduated and lived with my parents, I simply can't structured my mind just to write a CV, I know this sounds faggy as fuck, but I simply doesn't feel at home here. Just did the "talk" with them and I feel I just wanted to end it all. I really need to gtfo away from them, but that requires me getting a job; which I can't bring myself to while still living with them. Not really asking for advice, simply need to write this somewhere to vent and keep myself from revenge hero'ing against my parents and sister.

 No.289732

>now that i've graduated
this takes the cake in your post there little WIZ
you need a BONK on your HEAD

 No.289733

>>289732
>>289732
If anything graduating just plunged me deeper into depression. Now I'm not even doing anything despite spending the last year in college practically NEETing.

Also fuck, I'm not imagining things. It is indeed my parents that pushed me into depression. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC8557851/

 No.289734

>>289733
your best bet is a part time job
in ANYTHING
forget your degree, ANYTHING

then while you work there, apply for jobs that fit your qualification
>noeoee i gotta get away from my parents first
BONK BONK BONK

 No.289739

>>289731
How old are you? No offence but you sound like an actual child.

 No.289742

>>289739
Perhaps I am a manchild too immature to masked myself as a well adjusted adult in vietnamese basket weaving forum. Fuck off.
>>289734
thanks for the advice. Yeah I realized gaining some semblance of independence is the way to go, though part time jobs aren't really a thing where I live, probably harder to get than a real job.



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 No.288596[Reply][Last 50 Posts]

Post here when you don't have enough to say for a topic and it's too depressing for the general crawl thread.
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 No.289880

>>289878
also hate how expensive shit is. when i left in 2017 a studio, in my poor southern state, went for $500ish. now it’s $900ish but menial wages haven’t increased at all. it’s all so goddamn frustrating, i didn’t even sit on my ass and fuck around pointlessly i genuinely tried. i’m just angry and scrambled and exhausted of going to take a piss or shit and having to scrub her slime off of. disgusting pig succubus

 No.289903

I'm in a really rough spot in life. I don't know what to say. It just sucks.

 No.289905

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Dear Oscars

I wish I could (finally) say something positive, but I am still devastated by AT's passing.

So congrats and fuck off
,-_-,

 No.289966

>Movie is coming out on a certain day in March
>K, its juat coming out in March
>not coming out at all

Whatever dementia induced shit this is it's sure af making me immune to whatever's hip rn :>

 No.289973

>>289880
I kept telling wizards it's only going to get worse and worse as capital keeps accumulating to the same 0,2% of owners while everyone else has to pay more & more with wages staying stagnant.

Arrogant young apprentices said life has to turn out for the better eventually. It doesn't. We are at a point in history where if you weren't born rich, you need to prepare for decades of hell and struggle.

That $900 apartment will be $1300 in a few years and wages wont go up a cent.
The brutal reality is you can stay with your mom or live in a forest or the streets. You have no other options. Life is hell.


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 No.288108[Reply]

I don't think many of you know where or what is Morocco, basically it's a North african country that is at least probably the best country in Africa since it's atleast self aware of it's occurance and what's happening there but in the economic side it's in fucking shambles, Teachers getting assfucked and treated like subhumans and what's worse is that i'm in college and my only way out is to become a teacher therefore to becoming a subhuman. Ignoring that, As i said Economically it's literally going downhill as the fuel prices are way too higher than what they used to be (9 Dh[0.90$] (2019) - 14.50 Dh[1.45$] (2024)) I can't even afford money to pay for fuel to my bike so i'm fucked and even if i get money the fuel is still atleast half, And the food is also way higher than it used to be and many many items are very high, So it's basically a hellhole, but to make it more than a hellhole. The unemployement rate possibly in Morocco is unfamously known as the worst in possibly Africa since many people after College don't find any Job that fits their status quota, or even to get into McDonalds you need to fucking have friends there just to get there and get treated like a subhuman which in contrary in America McDonalds is a job that anyone can get to easily and even make fun of. And to compare the salary of a Mcdonalds worker in the US with a Teacher in Morocco, It's like comparing an Engineer with a trash collector. Because a fucking teacher in Morocco gets paid 500$ in Average meanwhile McDonalds employee gets 3k$ and still fucking whines in 4chan about his loneliness, a measely fucking 500$ imagine that shit now as something that i'm studying for my 21 years and to get treated like a subfuckinghuman and i don't even know if i'll get that job since it's very hard to get into it and i don't even know if i'll get my degree but just imagine a YouTuber getting paid 5k in one hour while a Teacher in Morocco gets paid 5k in a year.

Now in regards to the Culture, we're way too fucked as everyone is literally diverging into being a thug or a criminal, Everyone is obsessed with the rap culture and they want to be aggressive fucking faggots i hope they all get fucking nuked and get their whole intestines burned while they're alive and survive for days getting tortured by that pain and die like dogs, and in the other side about succubi, Man like me who don't belong or even have that much in Society don't exist, i don't mean it metaphorically but literally unirPost too long. Click here to view the full text.
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 No.289473

>>288595
no offense, but you don't belong here. could you go hang out with your friends or go to the pub or whatever local meets you do.

i understand that it feels amazing for you to come here and be the king of the losers. it must suck being the least of the normals, i wouldn't know.

sounds like you have a fantastic and fortunate life and all you can do is humblebrag and complain. it's really obscene imho

why normals always

 No.289474

>>289466
if i were you, i would make the journey. i would find a way to travel with my body and what i can take, to make it to the promised land. you can be one of the immigrants that we see on the news, where they travel to another country that is better and has more stuff.

you can even make this your life mission just to make it to a first world country. i think you can do it, if you really want. you could do it.

 No.289479

>>289474
I think you're American and don't understand the situation here. There are no more job opportunities in Europe for illegal immigrants who make the sea trip. There are no asylum permits either because we don't have a war going on.

It's beyond hopeless and stupid making the trip now. Only illiterates make the journey now. They end up in detention centers and get deported.
People think it's so easy in Europe. Roads paved with gold and jobs for everyone.
I was there and even whites struggle to get entry tier jobs. It has become just as nepotistic as Egypt or Morocco, with the exception that an unemployed EU native can live with a dignified standard of living.

 No.289480

>>289479
i'm no american. i do understand though, i don't think you understand. i have been in life and death survival situation and suffered horribly to my person, physical and mental. because im a good man and i did do everything right and properly by the system. the way this world works however, and what i never understood until more recently is that it is expected and everything is set up assuming that you're going to lie cheat and steal to get what you want. you're in a big competition and that is what nobody ever told me or a lot of other naive, good, kind hearted wizbros that just wanted to live a simple peaceful life in the world.

what i'm telling you is that, like you, i had a choice, i could have protected myself, my health, my 'future', and i didn't because i did the right thing, i didn't lie, even to protect my own safety, because i believe so strongly this is a spiritual world, and i will not disobey my Lord. i paid dearly for this and have a lived experience not dissimilar to what Jesus had to live through.

so, what i understand, and what i think you don't understand because you haven't learned the hard way like me, is that you need to make that trip.

you don't have a choice, if you don't if you don't find a way, you will be stuck there and probably die, if you ever make it to an advanced age then i would not want to be in such a country in the times ahead, as an old person. i can only tell you what i have learned, and that you need to look after yourself and make the choice yourself and bend the rules, not God's rules mind you, but the rules of man which aren't nearly as important and only matter insofar as they pertain to obeying what God says. you said you were there, you are going to have to find a way to get back there, and to create value so that you don't rely on traditional and artificial systems to make it in the world. hustle, somehow, you have to figure it out. your challenge is unique on its own, and we all have challenges where we must do our part to overcome. it wont be easy and it will be new ground you will have to forge, but that is what will need to be done if you don't want to stay in a third world country, and i have outlined to you now the consequences of not making the decision and letting yourself be tossed around by the world.

my Lord God said the meek will inherit the earth, and though i'mPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

 No.289670

>>289466
Ahaha Egyptian friend, we're bound to be fucked regardless of what we do



 No.288457[Reply]

Back in High School I tried to cope with doing hobbies outside, to participate in normalfag activities because I wanted to at least give the bluepilled advice a go, I knew in the back of my mind it would not work and to nobody's surprise, the expectations are exactly what occurred, it resulted in nothing but utter humiliation. I played for a football academy back in High School and whilst I was decent at it I was treated poorly by my teammates, did not make a single friend there even though I contributed a lot to the stats of the team, we even made it very far into the tournament, after that incident I was discouraged to make friends because no matter how much meritocratic value is under your hands you are worthless to everyone, unless you're a prodigy your efforts are worthless.

Going outside has not improved my health but only worsen it, it has done the opposite effect, it makes me feel more worthless, more worse overall, a complete abomination, it reminds me of what I look like which is the opposite of what I'm trying to achieve. If you're an ugly midget subhuman like me then don't go outside and if you have to then try to limit it as much as possible because other people will remind you of your own flaws.

For ugly midgets like me, I think it's better to stay home and play video games. Don't go outside unless you have to. Make sure all of your hobbies are in solitude, experience surreal dimensions through novels, animes and video games. Outdoor hobbies can be selectively chosen, ones that don't include many people, walk through national parks in those isolating tracks because not much people are there, it's a great cope to view nature as a wiz. If you have the privilege, then work remote or at least hybrid, if you can't do this then get into a field of work that requires a limited interaction of others, if you are even more privileged then NEET but I would not suggest this as its damaging to your health in the long run.

There's no point going to malls, restaurants or visiting popular tourist sites like the Eiffel tower, it is super damaging to your brain being in places surrounded by normalfags. Just watch the YouTube video of it or visit the Minecraft version.
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 No.289531

ever since i decided to go full wizc and just live selfishly but leading a healthy life, doing what's best for me, my life has improved and i've never felt better.

It's a lie that humans are social animals, they want you to believe that because then you're basically easier to control, it's another way to say that you depend on them to exist, which is partially true, but all your psychological needs can be met without the help of irl human interactions.

Avoid people. Avoid niggers. Avoid whores which is every female. Just take it easy wizfriends. people just bring more problems and if you're a wiozc like me then you don't need more problems. You need peace.

 No.289547

>>289531

>It's a lie that humans are social animals


How is it a lie?

 No.289548

>>289547
Not that poster, but it is a lie. It only applies to neurotypicals.
The only reason a neurodivergent needs other people is for food production, or should a grave illness fall upon them, a doctor.

Not everyone needs to be around people or talk to them, or spend time with them.
For a lot of people (like me), it's a huge energy drain which requires weeks of recharging just to be around a bunch of people for 3 hours.

I don't count wizchan as socializing. I just read it for interesting posts a few times a week for about 15 minutes and then I quit. I could live without it, it's just the only website that is worth reading.

I've gone years previously without talking to anyone or viewing any forum/imageboard. I didn't go crazy or feel pain or whatever normies feel when they are isolated for 24 hours.
It was peaceful, relaxing and ordinary for me.

 No.289570

>>289548
ND here, reads correct enough to me. I do enjoy interacting with people (everyone here does or they should re-examine why they seek a forum over books, it's not a big deal to enjoy it.) but there is not the sense of a fundamental need in order to be happy behind it.

I find that with stillness and without the thoughts and perspectives of others, I naturally gravitate towards confidence and happiness. Only through other people are these really dragged down.

However I believe the "social animal" idea is tied to the need to rely on each other to survive at all. Which is where it cannot be denied. Self-sufficiency is a rarely practiced art. And of course it would be, only families have children and so each time the decision to become self-sufficient is a deliberate step away from community into solitude, it contains friction, it is un-obvious. Doubt even 1% of posters here have even seriously considered it due to the difficulty and frankly rather arbitrary challenge it is. It is far easier to live amongst people. Thank you grocery stores that do delivery, amen.

 No.289661

I've never been happier than spending time in my room doing whatever I want.



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