No.250632[Reply]
Hello, I really need help right now, most specifically from any fellow NEETs on the board.
I live in a place where NEETbux isn't really viable, so the only way to be a NEET is leeching off of my parents. I know they wouldn't get to the point of kicking me out, so I'm safe in that regard, but still, the advice I need right now, from anyone who's been in the same situation, is: How do you overcome the shame and guilt?
I know they love me, and I do love them, even if I don't seem to do so in their eyes, they probably see me as ungrateful and lazy, a dissapointing failure of a son. I understand the reasons for this, they were loving parents and did their best, and I gave them lots of hope in my academic years, always being an outgoing student.
For me to turn out like this is something that'd naturally make them somewhat resentful of me, but the thing is, either I'm a NEET or I kill myself, and I though that being a NEET would hurt them less. I can't live a normal life anymore, studying, working, it's all just too much for me, it's a lifestyle that makes me breakdown regularly.
If I'm going to live, it has to be as a NEET, in my room, comfortable, but most of all: Safe. I'm at peace here in my bed, with my laptop, door and windows shut, no notifications on my phone, no one else awake at home but me, this is the closest I can get to bliss, if I'm going to do this whole living thing, it has to be like this.
Still, seeing my parent's dissapointment, being a manchild while all of my old peers move forward in life, getting good jobs, buying their own homes and starting families, I don't exactly want any of those things anymore, but it's hard to not feel inadequate and ashamed, it's hard to not have even worse self esteem, but most of all: Guilt.
What should I do? Killing myself is an option, but I don't want to break my parent's hearts.
However, living the life they want me to live, it's just too much for me, I don't want to suffer.
40 posts and 3 image replies omitted. Click reply to view. No.250985
>>250982Very much so. Fortunes of course can turn anytime.
>>250983>>250984I think you are too harsh on me, but coming to middle age you think about death a lot, be it your parents death or your own.
Why I think about my parents death is not due to who is going to buy my tendies, but the sense of true loneliness. Many neets pretend that they are `lonely` but in reality, oftentimes they have parents. When they are truly gone so goes your last connection to world. And I think this is terrifying, maybe far more than being old and not being able to stand after you fall under your ass.
Having a family just to have someone to take care of you is narcissistic I agree with you on that.
No.250987
>>250985You don't even know what loneliness is, if you think neets can't feel lonely for having parents. Psychopath trash.
No.250989
>>250987They can feel lonely of course but it is not true loneliness. If you have a functioning family consider that a blessing. Many people don't have it and one day they will be gone. I think people dont appreciate their parents as much as they should.
>>250986>>250988>>250986Okay I will stop feeding your bait and random insults enjoy talking to yourself
No.250994
>>250632Look into a job that would be NEET friendly and look for seasonal work this winter to keep family happy
No.250995
>>250989It's true loneliness you narcissistic trash.
Who are you to tell others they're not feeling true loneliness because they're parents are still alive. For you one might need to be the only single entity alive on this planet to experience true loneliness.